The Libertine is Locked in Jail

'Babyshambles gig tonight cancelled'

'Everything's got to be
Just how it has to be
Or he won't play
And I know that boy wants to
Approach me and say
All he's got to say
Maybe he'll say it today, maybe no'

On the news they said that Pete going to jail will reinforce his 'bad boy junkie rocker' image and make everyone love him even more. They make it sound like his fans are an army of screaming 14 year old Pete Doherty wannabes following him around wearing trilbies and injecting heroin to be like him. Or we're all hoping he'll die so that we can have a new Kurt Cobain to cry over and talk about how he was a tortured genius and carve his lyrics into our skin. Well, I'm not like that. I have no rose tinted glasses when it comes to anything, never mind Pete Doherty. I'd so much rather he was clean, that the Sun didn't give a fuck what he did, that he was happy. That he was never in police custody instead of at a gig I've paid for. I don't think it's romantic or 'rock n roll' or impressive that he's in this state. I feel really sad for him and scared for him. On a couple of forums I've looked at, people turn on the guy the second he's let them down. Really, really turn on him, and say some very nasty things. I'm upset, and disappointed, and a little bit sad. Especially because this was the last possible chance to see him, maybe for a long time. But when I bought that ticket I knew it was a gamble and I knew he's unreliable and that he might get arrested or might just decide he couldn't be arsed leaving London. And even that he might show up when really he was in no fit state to be near a stage. Everyone who bought a ticket knew the risk they were taking. I bought it for the chance it would be an amazing night. It was a gamble, and I might even have known from the start that the odds weren't in my favour, but I still think it was worth it. If he was playing again next week, I'd do the same thing again. Because if it had worked out and he'd shown up and played, it would've been beyond amazing. It would've been worth the money 100 times over. I'm not angry with him, I'm not vowing never to give him another penny, I'm not acting shocked like this was completely unexpected. I'm just a little bit disappointed, and a little bit hoping he'll get his act together sometime soon before he pisses it all away completely.

'I'm so sorry if I neglect you
I mean you no harm, mean you no harm
And I'm so sorry if I disrespected you
Mean you no harm
Oh look around, it's true
Tonight, I'll be chasing you'